Tied the Knot

i haven't formally exchanged vows just yet, but there was a short confirmation of being tied. it was a whirlwind. i don't know. i just finally said YES. i was caught up with two dilemmas. a choice between the-not-so-likeable job. i was given enough time to think about it, but i didn't make use of that time to even "think". i wasn't really interested. and i almost had that final decision that i won't take it. but today just turned my life upside down. i was faced with two opportunities and i felt trapped. i thought that i didn't have the luxury to turn down two blessings at the same time. i could not let them just slip into my fingertips... i don't think that i am much valuable to this society that i am badly needed. no, not just yet that i am starting to take the path to corporate world. i am the guinea pig. or i am the youthful fish that is being lured by a striking plastic squid stuck on a hook. i don't even have the right to demand for something else. i've been pathetically convincing myself that i'll be goddamn "rich", so to speak (and that "rich" definition is relative to myself), and save enough for my fetishes. i will do have chances of flying from one foreign island to another. and a promising working environment where i can, or may, find my "knight". but daym, i cannot convince myself just that. i don't know. i hate the place. i frigging hate the hellish traffic! i fear that i'll be working with freaky old people who will maliciously and overly take advantage of their "superiority". i fear being called at night to fix some anomalies lurking around the system. worse, not be able to fix it! be asked to report on a frigging lovely weekend. have myself pestered by *ring*ring*'s flashing through my mobile phone, interrupting my holy days. ride myself to sleepless nights. ghostly midnights. miss the city lights of the high-maintenance world of Makati. miss the skyscrapers and the busy-buzzing people walking through the streets of Ayala. but should i chose something that cannot pay the work that you do? work for the name? thank you very much.

maybe it's just not time to get what i really want. or maybe, i have been focusing myself to the bad part of life that i am subjecting myself to hurt to be able to realize that there's still good things on the other side of it. self-confessed MASOCHIST, remember? maybe i've just been thinking too much. or then again, been complaining for no concrete reason just yet. or maybe it is quite too soon to look further. i haven't started. maybe i just have to take one step at a time. and gawd, i still have long life ahead of me. even before i end up my "tied-up contract" i am just damn 23!!!! young, really... hehe. still more room for success! bring it on!:D

i have had enough of the weighing and the maybe's. it has been delayed. and it is too late. i just have to leave myself with good thoughts coming around. i've promised myself just that. now, i'm thinking of a somewhat "long term" goal in life. well, i just can't believe that i am now driving myself to work because i am gonna be hell earning enough. it wasn't my ultimate goal in life, i just realized again. i want to be ultimately happy with my life, in general. maybe that's the worse part of thinking much. i have been complicating myself with unknown complexities that seem to bother me and make life miserable. much more miserable. well, now, i am thinking that i will be entering another phase and i need to surround myself with a lot of positive thoughts. i shall think that i am entering this job because there's a great possibilty of growth. i should be able to attain a higher level of understanding in this field. oh yes, in the IT field. (i have accepted that line of work, finally) i should prove to myself that i can do things on my own, that i can now decide for myself. that i am now solely in charge of my life, and that i have no other people to blame for my shortcomings. that i have to put myself to the top, because i need to get there, so after two years of being tied, i am ready to sell myself and yes, finally be proud of myself. i have to regain that pride that once was lost. i have to put a price to myself. that i am worth something. no, am not worth any monetary value. i just have to have that feel again that i am something. i am someone. i need to be proud of myself again and win first place.

enough enough. what matters most now is that i have 25 days left to my bummer days. i am CARPE DIEM-ing starting today. wish me luck. and oh, please do pray for me? will you?

Dear Lord, i pray tonight that You may bless me with serenity. i have been indulging myself into deep thinking and it has devoured me for the entire being. i pray that You guide me, as You have always been, that i may find true happiness and fulfillment that i haven't had full grasp of. i have been in continuous search for the path that You have intricately weaved out for me, and may i find one of its strands, through the decisions that i have made. in times of confusion, hear me Oh Lord, so i may be able to resolve the perplexities i am faced with. may You continue to bless me with guidance and wisdom that i may be able to carry out all Your plans for me. Lord, i offer these all to You.


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First Swipe

as the first sign of being a bummer, i swamped out of my bed the whole day. too bad, i caught myself with a terrible migraine.. it kills me everytime i have that attack that seems to break my skull in two. oh well, at least i got the rest i needed for three days. at long last, i finally had the taste of peace. devoid from stress. what a relief. *bliss* WHEW!

anyway, i've started to keep good things coming my way. i feel positive vibes around me. this is all good:) with anything that pulls me away from happiness, i veer away and drive myself to the road to bonheur. hehe. i've spent weekends my precious nephew and niece. i've watched The Big Fish. great movie. i just wish i had that conversationalist dad as Eddie was. and highlighting, my first swipe! i just bought the Borrowed Heaven and Songs About Jane!!! woopeedoo!!!! i'm so excited! hehehe. i am enjoying myself to the sounds of Maroon 5. oh yeah, first time i swiped the card, and scribbled my own signature to that white piece of electronic generated receipt. daym! i just wish i have work (but not too soon!) so i could buy my luxury once in a while;)

anyway. that's about it. hope good things come even more. You are all welcome, indeed!


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official flag bearer for the bummers!

today wraps up college life. it was saddening though. the last day didn't seem 'memorable'. maybe it was too highschool-ish to be just that. i still can't overcome the thought of me leaving school. oh well. that's life. i need to move on.

i'm now in for my ultimate mission. to REST.. for a while. indulge myself to the perks of being a bummer! reliving my couch-potato days. and my 'buhay-baboy' days.. sleep-eat-sleep. bwahaha. my quest for the eternal sunshine that may come to my spotless mind. to sleepless nights of waiting for a chapter, and another chapter, and another chapter to finish. to all the coke i can gulp and the MSGs i can munch. to the comfort of my bed, and the pesky mosquitoes which are really fond of sucking my blood. my skin immunity is not getting any better. to more YM and blogging sessions! and being in touch even more with the silver screen. waaaah!

it is official! i am now a certified bummer!!!! Congratulations. may you make the most out of it. soon enough you'll then be tied again. enjoy. CARPE DIEM, kiddo.

*i dyingly want that maroon 5 cd! huhu! donate donate! and the MYMP. and the Borrowed Heaven. and the Eleven Minutes. and the Shopaholic. haha. and oh, Keith Martin was beside us tonight. we were looking at Kyla's CD and he interrupted Mark by telling that "hey we have two duets there". hahaha. i just realized he was beside us when he interrupted our conversation. hahaha. :) and sudenly i just heard his music play over the background of the store. waaahahaahaha..


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Acknowledgement

i've done my acknowledgement to my dear college friends for everything we have shared through the entire 4 years and 1 term we have been together. the memories are immeasurable with any number of "thank you's" i can utter. now i'm thanking the people whom i owe my social life. if not for them, i could have really turned to a real nerd. haha. that's my personal definition of a nerd. WALANG SOCIAL LIFE. hahahahaha;p

Thank you to my highschool friends.. we are not collectively known as something else, for we don't know who's part of it really. hehe. so thank you to all. most especially to Buday, for always being an ear to listen (i really miss your manila line!! i can't complain to you anymore!!! bring it back! bring it back!!) . at least i've finished that last dragging chapter. but i've come to another predicament. (i've been vigorously been involving myself with that, don't i? self-confessed MASOCHIST.) i owe you my sanity. and please, for crying out loud, have your cell phone loaded!!! you're working dude! hehehehe;) to Pearl, thanks for the moments we've shared through YM complaining about thesis. hehe. i'm wishing you the best. you still have one more sem to go!!! wooopeedoo! thank you for taking time reading my whines even if it would mean not sleeping (again!) and exchanging your plates for me. or am i your scapegoat? tsktsktsk. i still am looking forward to our business deals in the future. i really hope we get filthy rich (oops, kami lang pala;p mayaman ka na!) so we make them all concrete;p to EJ for being my constant companion through college life. i really miss our bus rides home. :( and i miss your house. your room. your kitchen! hehe. thanks for being my siamese twin, connected through our intestines.. hehe. sana naman this time, we find ourselves having the same freaking experiences on a positive level naman. good luck on your MED school. don't give up dude. it is your passion. let it drive you;) thanks to Hart, for pestering me every God-given midnight with "pointless" arguments that we always end up into a pesky quarrel i can only give up to stop. but you never wanted me just simply giving up. 'escape', 'retreat', blah-blah-blah. no more comments on that. STOP. i've had enough every night. but thank you really, it made me awake at times i needed to keep my eyes open-wide. although it was sordid to keep an argument alive. it stresses me even more. hehe. but, on a serious note, thanks also for being "there" and for all the memories shared. you made me realize so much about life... and that it is bad to say sorry when you don't mean it. haha.:P To tara for being proud of me that i have taken courage. hehe. thank you for clicking with us easily.:) to Chase for taking me home those times we spent 3am at starbucks and for taking me home the next morning when you got asleep at pearl's house! hehehe. thanks really;) to Jerome, for all the rides din. since summer. hehe. thanks for your weird insights and i am glad that you realize now that having a CAR and a CELLPHONE is not a NECESSITY. gawd, i can't believe it took you 21 years to realize that!!!! hahahaha. thanks for all the pinky promises. teehee! i enjoy the times you never stop yakking about your life, most esp the 'most intriguing' aspect of it. hahaha;) continue building your muscles to keep you from being noticed at first glance as a, uhm, girl. hehe. to Pie, for still keeping in touch even if we're so many miles away... i really miss you. to Glenn for the ride home when Jerome and Chase weren't around yet. hehe. thanks sa lahat ng pangungulit kahit na ngayon eh nabawasan na. thank you to Carl for reading my blogs. hehe. for all the ym's.. and for my promising treat at Yellow Cab. hahaha. sama natin si...?? hehehe. joookeee:) buti naman you've changed my outlook towards your batch. it wasn't good. please don't ask:P

I really want to thank my family for being there, a cushion everytime i come home from battle (thesis that is. hehe). thank you to my MOM for giving me all the support i needed. for praying for me ( i really do praise the Lord for all blessings showered upon us) and for the much-awaited "reward" (i'm thanking in advance!) for all the sacrifices. hehe. i hope this is not drawing this time. for the nth time my dearest mother. hehe. to my dad who never seemed to talk that much, i know you're happy for me now that i am finished. to all my brothers and sisters for bullying me and pestering me everytime i am in front of the computer and looking serious. damn, i hate it when you do that! to my brothers, thank you for all the fresh-from-foot-socks you've been squashing upon my face. and for picking me up when i don't have any ride. i just wish you teach me how to drive already? long-standing request!!! to all my sisters, for all the clothes i wore, the watches i scratched, for the bags i ditched, and your perfumes i drank (hehe), for the accessories i lost. hehe. sorry for that. when i get rich, i'll get you to a shopping spree (yeah right?! haha!). to my nephew Gaby for bringing so much light into our house when you're around. for making me procrastinate just to stay with you for the night. for wrecking my pc the last time we were about to defend! (i didn't get mad don't worry:)) for all the scratches in my face. and for the pictures with you that i have posted online. hehe. to my niece Baby Mae, you bring so much joy when you're around. you and your kuya are my stress relievers. hehe! i hope you grow up to be a good girl;) like ninang. hehe!

i just want to thank the Lord again for all the blessings that He has been showering upon us. Thank you Lord for everything. there's far more than words can express for all the things You have done for us. thank you for all the prayers heeded. thank you for still hearing them out even if at times i forget to give thanks. You truly are my pillar whenever i am in doubt, and about to fall. I offer this all to You.

to all the people who had, has and still continue to inspire me to move on every single day, thank you. life hasn't been smooth for me. i've been born with all the complexities and ironies that seemed to have consumed me throughout this lifetime. but i could never have given so much importance about this life if not for the people i have met along the way... life has been worth the living. and suppose i say, i LIVE and not merely exist, it is because...

i'm ending this up with a favorite line i got from one of my favorite authors, Paulo Coelho. it best explains what i feel just now.

At the moment, I'm far too lonely to think about love, but i have to believe that it will happen, that I will find a job and that I am here because I choose this fate. The roller coaster is my life;life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it's mountaineering; it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don't manage it....However, if I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the rounding landscape and whoop with excitement.


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Runs in the Blood

I think that one thing that is inherent in our family is, BEING LATE. yeah, surprise no more. it does run in the blood. I had been ever so late in my entire college life (i've never had a record of perfect attendance for my first classes for the day!). And i was freaking late today for my interview. YIKEEES!. Oh well. Really a bad trait, but can't even do away with it. I do promise myself when I work, I'll try to manifest punctuality. Hehe. And I'm doing away with the Manila route. Hell traffic really kills me!

Congratulations! This marks my fourth month in my hopeful attempts to come up with my own masterpiece. Try harder.




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The Golden Rule

Do unto others what you want them to do unto you.

However, do not assume that they'd do just the same... for a golden follower does not expect anything in return.

My faith is still in You, oh Lord. Worry not.


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10 Rules to Follow - My Sassy Girl

First, don't ask her to be feminine.
Second, dont let her drink over three glasses, she'll beat someone.
At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't.
On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class. She'll like it a lot.
Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly. You'll feel better.
If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her.
Finally, she likes to write. Encourage her..

awwww...:"<


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Watch Me Shine - Vanessa Carlton

I'm not your average type of girl
I'm gonna show the world
The strength in me that sometimes they can't see
I'm about to switch my style
And soon things may get wild
But I will prove that I can conquer anything

So from my head to toe
I'm taking full control
I 'll make it on my own this time
(Better watch me shine)

Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine
Oh oh oh

So get ready here I come
Until the job is done
No time to waste
There's nothing stopping me
Oh
But you don't hear me though
So now it's time to show
And prove I'm gonna be the best I can be

So from my head to toe
My mind body and soul
I'm taking full control
This time
(So watch me shine)

Better watch out
Going for the knockout
And I won't stop til I'm on top now
Not gonna give up until I get what's mine
Better check that I'm about to upset
And I'm hot now so you better step back
I'm taking over so watch me shine

Oooo oh ya ya (Oh ya ya)

Bet you don't think I can take it
But my mind and body are strong
Bet you don't think I can make it
It won't take long
Bet you don't think I can take it
But my mind and body are strong
Bet you don't think I can make it
It won't take long


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Side Order = Biggie Frustration

yada yada yada yada...

blank. blank. blank.

blah-blah-blah-blah;

Gaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrr. Roooooowwwwwwwwl!!! Waaaaaaaaahhhhhh...

*Burp* I've had enough. Can I barf?


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Job Hunt #4

i've been on a mission.. trying to fit myself in to the "Real World". strutting myself to unknown streets, in heels (i'll be missing my sneaks!), hitching myself to trains that seemed to pack people inside, and squeeze yourself out before the light starts to blink and the sound goes 'beep! beep! beep! beep!'. (i almost got myself trapped, got those people pushing me back to the train!)

oh well. i'm truly lucky enough to be unfortunately, UNEMPLOYED. harharhar. seemingly, or true enough (better!), the sound of bitterness came out inherently. bahahaha. for so long, i've caught myself miserably dumbfounded, pitying myself (like, still got your brain intact? let it come out, you rusty mass of a balloon vessel!) and dumped with all frustrations that i can get. aauugghh. i've been thinking that maybe i really am not meant for this. maybe there are other plans ahead, and that i should keep my faith.. there's still more in stored. more to life.

WAIT AND HOPE. and oh, patience is indeed a virtue.

x's: i'm stuck with stupid logic problems which make me even 'stupider' (quoting from Jack Frost!) not to even answer one! to cats, and blue-eyed people, and alphabet that seem to have values of their own. dammit.

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Second Place

just when you thought you were about to win, you just lost it.

i was sitting in our not-so-comfortable couch watching Olympics.. event was a marathon thing. i don't know how many meters that dash was but it was short. the world record was barely 10 seconds. so that waso one real quick run. the yellow shirt wearing guy was leading for 5 secs, but 2 or 3 seconds later... uhh, well, unfortunately, he didn't step into the line first.

i have been living the quarter of my life (80 years is quite long enough. i should be ready to leave by then) and i have yet to add another year of existence in two months time.i had been in a journey. it wasn't a pilgrimage or an odyssey. and it wasn't that long ago. i haven't had adventures or brand-spanking-new experience to be proud of. but to the very few encounters that i had, i have to say that i always end up almost winning. that was it. ALMOST. JUST QUITE. but never. i had never won the battle.

but then again, i guess i didn't lose after all. i've just realized it's not about winning. with whatever level that is. the thing here is that you have set your aims at high.. that you have come this far. DAYM, i know that nothing beats winning the gold. but whatever it takes, always look at the brighter side of it. you have gone this far. never expect what will happen, but let the battle consume you and taste the dash to winning.

-- Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.


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Hey Love - Jason Mraz

Hey love, where you going to?
You're not sleeping anymore, you're just trying to.
Stay love, where you running to?
Awful happens all the time, don't let it kill you.

Easily with me I feel as fast as I can see...
Afraid of the horror stories I fall down on my knees.

Come away, come away.
From all these things unheard
If a chosen word has got you cornered
Then it's a lesson learned
Like close the book before it burns you.
Come away, come away.
From all these things unseen
At the price you paid I promise you won't believe anything they say
Belief will only disappoint you

In case you never noticed the path you never chose has chosen you.
Afraid to face and break it.
The secret


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Welcome Back to Earth

It's been a week.. of slacking off. Teehee. What a great relief. It's been three months since I've last watched a movie (Day After Tomorrow), had a good book to read (The Notebook), been to the dentist (yeck!), bought something for myself, and written "something". like using a pen and scribbled something down in paper (yeah like my diary). But now, i have been reviving myself from that deep nightmare and start to wake my senses from slumber. I am alive!

I've watched a movie last Friday. The village. Well, it wasn't that great though to mark the resurrection of my movie life. just shocked me for three (3) times! It was suspense to make your heart beat faster everytime the camera turns close-up to the character. (yeah, you know something freaky will happen). Thanks to She for letting me keep in touch with MR. Silverscreen again;) I still have to watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind though.=b that's one thing i'm keeping in my diary. I have finished reading Eleven Minutes, which really, really really, is a great book. Maria's diary and the pursuit of her dream, which wasn't how she would have wanted it to be.. amazingly, it had brought me "light" despite her melodramatic and lonesome life. The ending really moved me and like, kept me awed for a moment. Anyway, I'll be talking about her soon. (Be grabbing myself a copy of it. But not until I get more funds to feed myself with that luxury) I've watched two movies at Anna's laptop, Cheaper by the Dozen and Ella Enchanted, which both turned to be hysterically funny. :D

I'm planning to visit my loving dentist this week. (dreadfully wishing my braces be pulled off my teeth the soonest!) About to end the extended procrastination of reading The Da Vinci Code. And, oh, i still have pending things to do before "college life" wraps up in a week...


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Somebody to Love - Anne Hathaway

i liked Ella Enchanted. i got myself cracking up the whole time! it was great. ;) Anne Hathaway looked better with her hair reaching down to her hips. the guy wasn't that good looking though... awww.

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can't barely stand on my feet.
Take a look in the mirror
And I, see what you're doing to me.
I've spent all my years believing in you,
but I just can't get no relief.
Won't somebody, somebody, can anybody find me, somebody to love.

Got no feel I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm okay I'm alright
It shows that there's no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
One day I'm gonna be free
Lord somebody
Somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love

(She works hard) EverydayI try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm going crazy
They say I got a lot of wonder in my brain
Got no common sense
I've got nobody left to believe

(Find her somebody to love x6)
(Can anybody find me)

Somebody To Love


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seriously, am i a living comic story? can i just (if you please) say that i need to stop all the hoaxing and bah-humbugs and the lip-service?

should i believe today?


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Never exercise frugality on Investments!

ironically, due to my extreme exercise to frugality, i have resorted myself, involuntarily, to spend more than what is expected.

we went to powerbooks since it was "SALE" but was still hoping that i could get a book below P300. lucky i was, there wasn't. thru glorietta, we've been to a book sale and blinding light came shining for a "cheap" book... found some interesting and great catch novels. silence of the lambs and hannibal. two of thomas harris' great pieces. missing was red dragon though. anyway, to utmost surprise of having a bargain, i grabbed those two hastily.. with first glance on prices -- Silence at P55 and Hannibal at P20.. again? Hannibal at P20? that sure was ultimate deal! happy and excited as i was when i got to the cashier, buday noticed that the receipt has been scribbled with P175! wtf? that supposedly-twenty-peso-worth-of-a-book was a hundred more!!! daym that S-A-L-E green marks almost concealing that hundreds place worth! blushing into deep humiliation, i was forced to take out another bill from my oh-so-harassed wallet of mine leaving it with enough funds to take me home. what did i do to the books? i gave them both to buday and served as a gift for her august22 birthday. i'll be frustrated reading those anyway. harhar. but i will someday.. after she finishes them both. afterall, i still have two pending to relish. *sweet-lemoning* and oh, she promised me she'll buy me the "Shopaholic".. hehe. assuring me of that feel-good-book:) i'm looking forward to it. and looking forward to someone else giving me the sequel book. manhattan or sister that is?

lesson learned... go figure.

that's why they're called "investments".


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crowning glory of nuisance

had a bad hair day?

i haven't been blessed with the oh-so-lovely-shiny-jet-black hair... that follows to every move. (singing to that tune..) even during my infancy, through my toddler years, i haven't got straight strands.. like what my psych prof told me during a discussion when we're asked to bring pictures when we were kids, he called my hair as Ben Wallace's.. and reinstating it by calling me 'cute' to compensate that understatement (bletch!). during my gradeschool, i had curls that looked like those of swiss milkmaids. it wasn't that awful (or maybe it was), but it wasn't great either.

as i stare at the mirror yesterday, sitting in that chair that was supposedly built to treat you and pamper you for a moment, i look at myself being sordidly combed through my not-so-manageable hair, and blew with hot air to dry after a relaxing shampoo over the sink. *one of my natural high's, having my hair nursed and caressed by combing it through. (i love it when somebody sweetly brushes through my hair.. sacred that is. hehe) after about 10 minutes of pampering, voila! how i wished my hair was always treated that way. but i don't have the luxury to do that. no time, and i am lazy to tend it ;) but i loved it then. i wished it stayed for a lifetime.. haaay.

anyway, to my big frustration of having it stayed that great (at least i thought it was!), i went to the salon today to have it cut. (btw, i had the license to haircut since we're finally over thesis) but, again (as always), i found myself regretable about having it chopped (like grass, it was too parched and dreary! like dessicated coconut). i am no bush, but a hairy button mushroom sprout. hahaha. oh well, i cannot do anything about this anymore. i can yak the whole night, and blame that lady-scissorhands for having me look like a capped- fungus. oh well, i just have to wait for two more months to regrow... but now i promise to give myself that simple luxury of having a better crown to glory... to win someone's heart? haha. naaah. i'll be winning it for myself.


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Bittersweet dilemma of Goodbye

the news has been delayed for one day. we have survived.. the long and winding and tiring road.. it marks the end.. of the excruciating pain.. of all patience and perseverance and hope all wrung from our restless bodies and worn-out spirits. and most importantly, it marks the end of the phase. just as what has been wished, will be moving on to another chapter.

but there's nothing to celebrate.. just yet? the feeling is absurd. my heart is filled with mixed emotions. i am happy yet sad. i am relieved but i am not just as fulfilled as i wanted to be. i am grateful that we have crossed the line but regretful that i have not yet done things i could and should have done. i am always on the contrary... with myself!

the overwhelming feeling has dwindled so soon. different emotions came shooting and firing on me. bringing me to another state where i found myself thinking so much about "the other" matters in my life. flying to another dimension where future lies. i don't know. maybe i just have resurrected the PARANOID side of me.. AGAIN. well, undoubtedly, it never died anyway. it was just there waiting to be triggered again.

i just have to revel on the glory of pain... it's always the bittersweet dilemma of MOVING ON.

goodbye? no such thing. say hello to tomorrow, for it is another day... no different from yesterday.

i have yet to believe that every person that comes in and out of our lives are bound to a special purpose. whatever the reason may be, whoever the person is, they will become a part of us... may be to make us or mar us. whichever it is, the reason is indubitably lucrative for our existence. the tangible connection of our lives may be broken, but the spirits will always keep their bond. with this, i believe that any one who has walked with me through the course of life may not take the journey with me still, but will always leave his footstep in my heart.


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Reliving the post

A battle with myself..

Highlighting #6 and #9.

and, oh - fickle-minded as MEN are.. but not as intense =b


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Full Moon

The night is dark
But the light of the sun
Reflected through this satellite
Is shining down on us

I rest my head
By the striped seats of the bus
As I stare at the perfect roundness of
The seemingly cratered disc
Silvery, shimmering, with halo-like ring
I admire
Even if the shadows of the clouds
Is trying to hide its beauty

It's running after me
With toss and turns
Of curves and straights
To every path we take
It's watching over me

Gleaming with bursts of light
Bleeding in luminosity
The radiant moon has come to
Embrace me with the touch
Of an endearing gentleness
And flashing me that passionate glare
Like eyes beaming in fantasy


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