Welcome!

finally she has come out.

welcome to the family, Julia Angela.

be good, girl:P


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Observation

tell me if i'm correct.

if not, excuse my scrutiny.

physically blessed females end up with the not-so-good-looking males more often, than the good-looking-men ending up with the not-so-pretty girls.

is it because that men are more into "physical" aspects than women? or it's just because men get to choose the girls that they court? and women are only donned with the right to select from whoever asks?


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Nice Read.

After a long time, finally i got to finish reading The Wedding. Never did it slip into my mind that it will have an ending as such. it was great. i love it. i could be happy with a man like Wilson. of course including the Wilson at the end.

so much about love. i always have this knack for reading love stories, but i can never seem to have my own. *augh*

hehe. it always feels great to read happy endings. feels like i came right into that picture. and i end up happily ever after. for now, i am contented at that:)


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Three Things

Three names you go by: kaye kayers kaypah

Three screen names you have had: hunnystars wshngstr bluetoothfairy

Three things you like about yourself: i love my family, i make friends easily, i can fully express myself

Three things you don't like about yourself: i am fond of complaining, i am a scaredy-cat, i am a pessimist

Three parts of your heritage: family oriented, birthday parties and TARDINESS

Three things that scare you: losing people, being unhappy, being alone

Three of your everyday essentials: phone, wallet, PC (syempre)

Three of your favorite bands (or artists) at the moment: Alicia Keys, Bamboo, Jet

Three of your favorite songs at present: Karma, Hush, Hold On

Three new things you want to try in the next 12 months: finish reading a book in a week (or probably a month), don't get LATE, learn how to drive

Three things you want in a relationship (love is a given): openness, communication, time

Three physical things about the opposite sex (or same) that appeal to you: smile, get up, nails:P

Three things you just can't do *or hardly*: write well, gain weight, GET UP EARLY

Three of your favorite hobbies: read. watch teleserye. listen to music (and sing with it. hehe bidjoke!)

Three things you want to do badly right now: buy new shoes! gain weight! sleep early!

Three careers you're considering: IT (where i'm into right now). business. marketing.

Three places you want to go on vacation: Beach (local). Europe. US.

Three things you want to do before you die: have a family. get rich. travel around the world.


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Kasama Ka.

Sana'y masabi
Sa awit kong ito
Lahat ng ninanais
Nitong puso ko
Sana saan man
Patungo sa buhay
May pag-ibig, may pag-asa
May saya at saysay
Sana sa bawat sandali'y
Matikman pa
Sarap ng pagsasama
At simpleng ligaya
Tara na, sakyan lang
Malay mo
Nandyan lang, nandyan lang
Ang hinahanap mo.

--Coca Cola


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Complacent

adj. contented; self-satisfied and unconcerned

i have been out last night and came to meet a few friends. we had dinner as usual (which always takes forever to decide where. at least almost all were in time. Thank God for that!) and never came around watching a movie.. opt to have a chat instead. they always had the knack for drinking and "one time big time" while talking about life, in general. more often than not, the bitterness of it.

she had a share of her own, i cannot think of mine, the other either. then this friend of mine came bursting out so much bitterness. i cannot collect everything that he has been uttering. it whacked me, big time! i cannot accept the fact that someone close to us has been recalling life to be so awful and full of pain.

bottomline of this saddenning argument is that he chose to be complacent. of course there is nothing wrong with being just that. but the thing is, he is doing NOTHING. and thinking that EVERYTHING is totally delusional, tires you from HOPING for a better outlook in life.. he's saying that since man creates his own emotions, and that they are all based from imagination, di na lang sya mag-iisip ng magagandang bagay. it is like saying that you create your own misery. sabi nya, nagho-hope ka ng magagandang bagay to come to your life, but at the end of the day you really don't get what you want.. and you realize even further that everything is a variable and nothing really lasts forever. so true. pero ang dating eh, so ikaw rin may kasalanan pala. wag ka nalang mag isip. ikaw lang din ang gumawa ng problema mo. DAMN! anong klaseng pag-iisip yan? totoo ba yan? being complacent doesn't just mean satisfaction and just absorbing what is present. que sera sera. i mean DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! if you don't get what you want, strive hard to achieve it! steady lang? stagnation yan eh! walang growth. at isipin pa isang taon ka palang na mamamatay ka rin in the end? gawd. what a painful way to view life. sabi ko nga HALF EMPTY. pero di rin nga eh, EMPTY talaga.

di ko maisip talaga, di ko matanggap. di ko ma-explain. his thoughts were "argumentative" to his own, even conflicting what he just said. again, i can't believe that there would be someone EVEN more impossible than this someone i know, thinking about LIFE in a totally negative way. may tatalo pa pala sa kanya. baaaakiiiit???

as i walked inside my room (thank God, someone opened the door for me:)) i came to think about the way i view life. and even if i don't get what i want, and even if i have moments of bitterness, it isn't so resentful at all that to have a better life is cynical. for twenty-one years that is, it wasn't so bad after all, and that i am not yet tired of living it the way it is. ENJOY the moment. at times when you're feeling sulky, there's always, always, always the LIGHT at the end of the tunnel. and if you choose to make your own emotions, never put yourself down that you will always feel deprived of the things that you hope for. if you don't achieve it, strive harder. quoting Paulo Coelho, the entire universe will conspire to help you achieve it.

stil, CARPE DIEM. seize the day. live life to the fullest.


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wala lang. wala akong masabi pero naisipan kong magpost.

parang may na-realize ako. na mas maganda kung may sistema ang buhay. hehe. parang ayoko yata ng buhay na di ko alam kung san ako pupunta. kelangan ko na mag-isip ng matinong patutunguhan.

naisip ko rin pala na maigsi lang ang buhay. kahit na di natin alam kung hanggang kelan lang, kelangan lang talaga mag-enjoy.

learn from the past. relish the moment. plan for the future.

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naisip ko minsan na walang "connection" ang present sa future. i mean, hindi lahat ng ginagawa natin ngayon eh may kinalaman sa magiging future natin. parang every day is a new day and they do not collectively define the future. matagal ko nang iniisip kung pano ko ito ie-explain eh. pero di ko pa rin kaya.

labo noh. pero basta ganon. may naalala akong prof na nagsabi nyan eh. nakalimutan ko na.


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Iba

hay. bagong taon na.. panahon na para mapagnilay-nilayan ang aking buhay. hehe. nagbusy-busy-han daw ako. hehe. but true, ironically, the strip of two weeks of the holiday season has been the "busiest" days of my work for the year (for three months, that is:P). anyway enough of the excuses, i'm "drilling" down the past twelve months.. and what have been.

i cannot remember the nitty-gritty details of twenty-O-four. but the end of the year came into a big realization that A LOT OF THINGS HAVE CHANGED. year-ender word. DIFFERENT..

for one, this is the first new year's eve i've experienced na UMUULAN. naalala ko siguro ambon lang. pero ngayon, ulan talaga. pero di tumigil ang putukan. baka samin lang. hehe. pero it's weird. sa street namin, parang kami lang ang nagpaputok. the house adjacent us didn't get out for the new year's eve. samantalang kami na nga lang yung mga natitirang bahay na nagsasaya sa paputok at nagpapa-picture sa harap ng fountain at trompillo. wala na ring masyadong tao pumupunta sa bahay namin for both christmas and new year's eve. the dinner table has always been full for the banquet. ISA PA, WALA KAMING TV NUNG NEW YEAR'S EVE! NAPUTUKAN!!! badtrip.

by the end of this year, umabot na sa 16.25 ang pamasahe mo ko sa tricycle pauwi at 6.50 naman palabas. 30 pesos ang bus papunta pauwi. 5.50 naman ang jeep. my gulay. kung kelan naman ako nagkatrabaho saka naman nagmahal ang mga presyo. dammit.

we had a new fashion of our home. it was great to have a "real" interior designer (unlike US, who were PRETENDING) to re-decorate and re-arrange the look. we have never realized na may pag-asa pa palang umayos itong bahay na ito. for more than two decades with unknown number of rearrangements, we never had that idea na maging ganito yung ayos ng bahay namin. hahaha.

my lifestyle has changed. maybe because i have work. i cannot stay up too late coz i get really bad migraine. i sleep before 10pm. i wake up before 6am. i've outgrown going up on late-night gimmicks. i'd wish we could just chill out, dinner maybe, and a few minutes for coffee and then off to home. or maybe a lunch out and then a movie perhaps. i don't want telling my parents that i'll be off to a gimik and stay as late as i could... PASAWAY as i was nung college. i'm such a lola. however, i still cannot drink a bottle of san mig light.

my friends have changed too. maybe it's really time to "grow up" and do the things that "Grown Ups" do. to be matured that is. and try the things we haven't done for the past 5 years we've been together. but they cannot blame me for doing otherwise. it doesn't express my immaturity, it is a personal choice. or maybe i'm still immature and "innocent" that is. but i just don't want to involve myself into such. i am just glad that they are the people who will teach me how to do things. on the right time when i am willing to have a bottle of strong ice. and teach me the things i could only learn from the experts. hehe.

CHANGE has constantly reminded me that life has to be DIFFERENT. difference brings forth meaning into my existence. more often than not, i view change not on a positive light, but with a tinge of doubt and a question of why. however, i must realize that stagnation and permanence do not provide the kind of fruitful living. continuous quest for growth, learning and unpaid experiences compensate the moments of grief, depression, repression to be able to achieve the license for a more significant way of living. be open.

IDEALISM has yet to be knocked out of my senses. REALITY must kick in.

--as always, i have forever felt that i never made sense with any uttered words. that's not a change. i'm still in sluggish motion in keeping this blog filled with essence.

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