Catharsis

Definition: The release of tension and anxiety by recounting and/or acting out past experiences.

I had a brief cathartic chat with a few friends. And funny how it seems that they are beginning to realize how life should be, and should have been. Now they know how to choose, know what they want, know when to try or risk, know where to put theirselves when dipped into deep sh*t.

Thanks;) Even if I hadn't experienced much to what have you had, I know it'll pull me through when I will. All had been heard, read, and kept in mind and carved in heart as well. You'll hear from me yakking, whining, struggling and howling with tears when I have my own share. For now I remain to be the addressee.

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Guilty Fries

It wasn't so late for me going home, but it was sure late for dinner. As I dropped myself in front of Jollibee, I decided to buy myself from hunger. One piece chicken joy and regular fries as usual. The first just came out right, however the latter had to keep me waiting. So I opened Goblet of Fire and whiled away for my fries. As I saw the red tray coming over my table, a large fries came lying on it. Thought that I had to wait a little longer.. But the guard was slowly coming over my way, then handing that large fries. I came looking for the receipt, and I read twice if I had just ordered large. But, it was as if I was reading in BOLD, saying REGULAR. or REG that is. I came thinking if I had to return and ask to be changed. Pretending to be naive and innocent of the said mistake, I went out and started eating.

Walking slowly, waiting in queue for the tricycle, and guilt-stricken as I was finishing the fries. Damn. The whole time I was munching each strip. I was battling with myself but I didn't do anything. Hahaha. Funny, para akong ewan na nakikipaglaban sa moral at sa gutom ko. Sabi ko pa, sasakit tiyan ko sigurado! Still, I ended finishing it all up (hungry still, though). Hay. It hadn't been me. I always return or ask to change my order if it hadn't been right (even if it'll be of my advantage). But I didn't know if I had just be too hungry (to death!) to exchange it for guilt.

Oh well. It'll be the last time. And I just came accomplishing that good deed, when I cashed-out my rebate for my Globe line. Hehe. The cashier gave me 2050, instead of 1250. Weird that he was, he came counting and reciting the bills. He said, "Ma'am your total cash is, One (thousand bill) thousand, Two (two 500 bills) hundred, and 50 (one fifty) pesos". I came counting myself in front of him, and repeated what he had just said. Then still he didn't get it. I wasn't successful of making him realize that he made a mistake. I was furious of his attention, then just came bluntly that he gave two five hundred bills instead of a hundred. As I walked out, I just realized that I am still a good girl, nonetheless:P

Good deed, dear:)

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Our Pseudo

Samuel Johnson. Marco Lance. Patrick. Haha. It is fun having our pseudos. That even with our own vivid, common, shared imagination, we are making things happen. As we want it. Haha. Desperate? Nah. We are just making fun of ourselves;) While waiting, let our minds wander through the 'catatonic' love lives... condition of being apparently awake but unresponsive (as google had defined).

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Milestone #002: 22

1. A card.
2. Two pictures with snippets of other picturettes.
3. cake with pink candles.
4. Pizza pasta chicken.
5. Dedications -- weird and funny and sweet and touching and inspiring!
6. 13 people.
7. Giftwrap tearing-- nada! Haha.
8. An emoticon gift.
9. An emoticon cake.
10. From myself - Nike Free.
11. No space for new messages.
12. Postponed evals.
13. 2k.
14. A black pen.
15. Green shirt.
16. Taco Bell's cinnamon twists.
17. Ube ice cream.
18. Marshmallows.
19. Irene (Wtf?! Ooops peace:P).
20. Waiting gift. Please pend, indefinitely (augh!).
21. Calls.
22. Home.

Missing some. Missing. Miss. Mmmmmmmmmmm.

Fun. More. Ta-tuh!

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Quote #001: The Evals

Never let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. - Jens Dahl

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What I Didn't Know - Athenaeum

I complain
When nothing's even wrong
And you're ashamed
Cause you're not quite that strong

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
I miss your face as you can tell
I hope my absence makes you well

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I am sorry too
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

I am shy
I never speak a word
And you are numb
From all the things you never heard

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
But now I own an empty space
And I can't fill it with your face

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I believe in you
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

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Milestone #001: First Anniversary

Quite nearing 22nd year of existence, it had been thought of putting down important, more so -- significant milestones that occur in my life. So let's just start with this..

First off, i had been corrected that it is grammatically incorrect to say "First Year Anniversary". It is redundant since "anniversary " already defines a year. So it has been noted. Thanks;)

Celebrating my first year in my 3rd "Second Home" was nothing much but an ordinary day. It was a usual Tuesday when I came on time (just like my first day last year:P) and sat on my cube starting to read mails and checking for tickets that I have to work on for the rest of the day. I have greeted two of my colleagues the same greeting I gave myself the moment I woke up, and those I have received since I got into the office. I was wondering if they felt the same thing I was feeling that moment on. Well, there's really no big deal about it, but I was just thinking if they were as quizzical as I was, pondering on how time flew so "fast". Or were they thinking that they had to "celebrate" their first year. Or are they "rejoicing" because they've got one more year left and they are (we are) broken free from the ball and chains. Or they are just simply "happy" and "contented" with what they have now, and thankful that they have WORK and THUMBS UP people to work with... Well enough of what they were thinking. I didn't even bother to ask. Guess they were thinking of it themselves and wondering the same way I did.

The first year may not be as extraordinary or did not shower brand-spanking new experiences to this so-called life, but I have to say that they were great. Really, time flies so fast. I came to meet alot of people, know things about other people, discovered alot about people, have analyzed the eccentricities of each person, have come to accept people as they are, no matter what. Precocious that I was/am, I have learned alot in a year.

Time:
1 month pretending to do something, and awaiting exactly for 5:30 to strike, racing against the door for dismissal. Trainings that seemed like so schoolish that I have missed.
8 months of imprisonment (with benefits:)) in the conference room made the bulk of the year.
3 months of "real work" came rummaging thru the core of "production"

People:
More than 80 people working in one floor
Six trainors
One "dad", one full "brother", and the rest are my half "siblings"
12 goofy teammates
one "odd" "Boss" (I had to put it in separate quotes since they had different connotations)
More than 30 "newbies" (dancing 80's, 90's and present).
[Those people that have gone in and out within one year had been more than momentous to call it a milestone.]

Place
One cube that I came populating with trash, and that turned to be the "water station"
One floor to which people spend more than 8 hrs
One sad looking bldg (because of its gray color) with poor elevator, and weird tenants from the lower levels (wish I can stalk at Kris Aquino by chance)
One way that I got to travel (in 2 hrs at max and 45 mins at min) for 5 years and counting

I have bought, received, lost, gained, gave, thrown away alot of memories and experiences. Some were firsts, some might be the last, some should be the last, some hopefully may not be the last, some may happen to be the first, some may not happen at again, some I never expected to happen, some I dreadfully wished not to happen but did, some I wanted to happen and did happen, and some just happened.

There's just too much in a year that happened and could not be compressed in one post. Glad that I am here. Aand after a year, I guess I have to say I am ready for one more:)

Evals coming up next week. Keeping my fingers crossed. My heart is thumping so fast.

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OktoberFest!

• Oct 03 - Betz's Birthday ; Leo's Back! ; Lunchout!
• Oct 04 - Our First Anniv ; walang lunchout:P ; NP w/ Jode
• Oct 05 - Pam's Birthday ; Libre Pam!!!
• Oct 06 - Lunchout c/o Leo ; San kaya?
• Oct 11 - Carlos' First Anniv ; May lunchout kaya?:D
• Oct 12 - hmmmm ; Pizza party?
• Oct 14 - Farewell party for Leo hehe ; Sino kaya papa-lunchout dito?:D
• Oct 15 - Party!!!!! ; sembreak na ng mga med students!
• Oct 21 - Monch's Birthday ; Libre Monch!
• Oct 29 - She's First Anniv ; Lunchout kaya kami?
  
• (POST OktoberFest!)
  *Nov 2 - Angel's First Anniv ; sabay na yan kay She! :P
• ThursDays are bowling days!

More to Come! More to Come!

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Moshi moshi

My Japanese name:

This kanji means Enlightenment.

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I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothin's going to stop me but devine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah la peaceful melody
It's your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So i won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
It is our fate, I'm yours

Well I been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I like one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

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