A Dose of Grey's

Meredith.

I've been running this series' second season since yesterday when I got in the office early for a "slumber-cutover-party". I like Meredith's end-of-episode-mini-diary-kind-of-thing and I found myself writing them down. The metaphor is amazing. That's what I wanted to learn, or to develop. To put ideas in a metaphor that can depict exactly what I want to mean. I didn't notice this the last season, maybe because I was busy wrapping my sister's books with plastic cover. No pen and paper around. Hehe. Anyway, I'd love to share this with you.

Dose1:
There's something to be sad about a glass full. About knowing when to say when. I think it's a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It's entirely up to the individual. And depends on what is being poured. Sometimes all we want is a taste. Otherwise, there's no such thing as enough. The glass is bottomless. And all we want is more.

Dose2:
No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. Except there's an upside of freefalling. It's the chance you give your friends to catch you.

Dose3:
Denial is not just a river in Egypt. It's a freakin' ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

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Amanda Marshall - I'll Be Okay

I hate to put this up.

It's like a white flag waving right above me. Like embracing the sweet surrender. The irony of being happy but realizing that looking outside of the box, it's a sad note. Really. I don't want to accept this FACT. Not yet. I am still clinging on the slightest chance. A chance is still a chance.

Someday, I'll cross these lines. But for now, I'll be out wondering..

It's time to let you go
It's time to say goodbye
There's no more excuses
No more tears to cry
There's been so many changes
I was so confused
All along you were the one
All the time I never knew
I want you to be happy
Your my best friend
But it's so hard to let you go now
All that could have been
I'll always have the memories
She'll always have you
Fate has a way of changing
Just when you don't want it to
Chorus
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay
Life passes so quickly
You gotta take the time
Or you'll miss what really matters
You'll miss all the signs
I've spent my life searching
For what was always there
Sometimes it will be too late
Sometimes it won't be fair
Chorus
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay
I won't give up
I won't give in
I can't recreate what just might have been
I know that my heart will find love again
Now is the time to begin
Chorus
Throw away the chains
Let love fly away
Till love comes again
I'll be okay
I'll be okay
I'll be okay
I can't hold on forever baby
I can't hold on forever baby
I can't hold on forever baby

Thanks to DJ for introducing me to Amanda Marshall. I have this mp3 all along but I didn't know who she was, so I was skipping this song the entire 2 years. Harhar.

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Filmloop - Episode 2

SEA DAY. No sports yet, coz still awaiting for Parasailing and Banana Boat pics:D To follow!



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FilmLoop - Episode 1

I was having a realtime frustration of having to put up our pictures in picturetrail (of 75Mb disk space), with me realizing that I still have account from photobucket which has 1Gb. Oh well. I got this FilmLoop (though I've been seeing this posted in other livejournals and Friendster accounts).

So this is the first installment. Day 1. More to come!




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The Bora - Per Diem!! (1st half)

FINALLY! I got myself back. I was losing my wits the other week. I felt like swooning due to a particular mood I cannot let loose. Now that I am getting over and done with it, I'm kicking in the good times to cover it up. Or should I say to fully dismiss the depressing phase. Just as I've read thru the internet, whether or not frowning uses up more muscles than smiling, I couldn't agree less that a frown really consumes a lot of energy in me. Hahaha.

Anyway, I wouldn't want to let the memory getting vague as each day passes by. I am not scribbling, erm, typing this whole event away for me to share, but for me to keep it fresh, with a vivid recollection as I read it thru. I am telling snippets per day, and will elaborate on highlights on each. Hahaha. It'll be a loooooong post. Better cut into half. Five days and four nights cannot be covered with few words. MAN, the entire getaway was more than words can encompass. Pictures can help me a bit to tell the story:)

Day 1 - FIRST DAY HIGH.
Drizzling. Kaye Ronaldo (este DJ) She Julia Fritz Jun Elsa Janice Crys (3G) at Cebu Pacific terminal. Delayed Flight. 11:15am Boarding time. First pass of our own version of Deal or No Deal! Won 20 pesos. Landing to Aklan around 12:15pm. Riding the van for around 2hrs to Caticlan. Around 30 min ride of ferry to Boracay! Landing to the clear blue water of Bora island, Station 3, with the sun up and shining! A 10 min multi-cab ride to Station 2. Checking in at La Carmela de Boracaya around 2pm. Getting a room at 130 (whew, that was the last room across the hallway, passing thru 14 rooms! waah!). Lunch at 2:30pm at Andoks:P Swimming at Station 1, FRIDAYS (by the far off-shore and pool!) with Estre and Lheng. Met Carlo and Rona, with Carlo and his skim boarding stunts:P Walked from Fridays to La Carmela for more than 40minutes with DJ and She! Dinner at Coco Mangas. Chilling at Cafe' Del Mar with Estre, Lheng, DJ and She.

The first day was a blast. And having the sun shining the moment we landed in Kalibo was truly a blessing. Excitement was all over us,3G. A lovely day ahead of us tomorrow, keeping us asleep with MYX on:) Times were at some point, kept tracked since I was wearing my watch. The rest of the days are timeless:P

Day 2 - SEA SPORTS DAY.
A sun shiny day! Rode the 9-passenger tricycle (50 peso-ride). Island hopping day. Crystal Cove! Photo-op.. to the batcave! Jellyfish attack. Fish-feeding with biscuitS! (Magic Flakes. Now I'm seeing it in a different way:P) Scary black fishes, tilapia-look-alikes! Blue starfishes. Weird starfishes. Lunch at Tonton's @ Puka Beach. Unforgettable Mackarel at 450Pesos. BANANA BOAT!!! PARASAILING!!! Speedboat ride! Swimming at LCDB pool. Crazy dance videos (Korean style:P). Dinner at Mañana. Totopos and Tacos! Second pass of Deal or No Deal. Break-even! She losing 21 pesos, owing 17 to Lheng, 3 to Estre and 1 to DJ:D Cinderella sleeping time.

The banana boat, though predictable, was a great ride nonetheless! I was screaming out loud, to fight the strong-sounding-throbbing of my heart. I have learned the art of pulling myself up. I was really having a hard time pulling the weight of my body before. Hehe. And whoaw, the PARASAILING! I was, at first, having doubts of saying YES. I really didn't have any idea what it was, how it would be, how long. But, eversince my tita told me about not letting each chance pass us by, and even thinking of the "what-could-have-been's", I did and had a great ride with She and DJ. Waaahh. The cost didn't matter much. It was all worth it. Being atop for 15minutes, with the clouds, with great friends was a total BLAST! Damn, IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!!! Every peso of it. WAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!! I was totally impervious to fear. Pain. Or any other negativity. High na high! Woooohoooo!!!

And the other half....TBC. Hehe.

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The "period" of Great Depression

They say it is natural. That in these times, women are vulnerable to pain and emotional instabilities.

And everything comes as a BIG DEAL. The littlest things that happen are translated to a significant issue.. which shouldn't be. but it was. and it is. Augh. Now I feel like passing out. My "occasional" depression phase has been consuming me the entire three days, since I've gone back from Boracay. Maybe because the high level of HAPPINESS has been lingering until we stepped on the wet grounds of Manila, last Tuesday (Jul18). And swiftly, just as the water from the sink, started to be drained all out of me. Seemingly, the water has just ran dry.

My body clock has been messing around my sleeping time, keeping me up and awake. In any case, I'll be lying down and be saying a little prayer before getting to sleep.


Dear Lord,
Thank you for these times: that when everything seems so low, You have made me realize that even in darkness, there will always be the moon and the stars that will help us brighten the mileu..

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The 3G gang to BORA!

I can still feel the beach is with me. My body is like floating with the waves, moving to and fro the surface of water, wherever the current takes this parcel of... meat (Hehe). It is as if my hands are still paddling thru the sea. And the smell of the salt water and powdery sand.. I can still sniff it under my nose. Hahaha. Yes, I am still under hypnosis of the GRAND BORACAY GETAWAY. The entire five (5) days and four (4) nights have been GREAT. MARVELOUS. SPLENDID. Whatever word can replace these by pressing SHIFT-F7 will definitely, without a doubt, translate to this amazing trip.

I still have the hangover after a day leaving the island. Too bad I can not profoundly share them tonight, with the nitty-gritty details and all that! I still am utterly sappy that we left bora. Yet still jumpy reminiscing the memories. Hehehe. I'm just having a battle with my hormonal imbalance today which is why I can't get this done. With all the blow-by-blow-daily-account of the entire stay. Waaah!

Will be sharing some pictures as soon as I clear my backlog for my three (3) days of leave. Hahaha. Which is.. when? NEVER! Wahaha. Kidding.

Just when I'm done with my girl-thing-time-of-days, I hope I can give a better share. Hehehe. For the moment, I have to stick with 3 more days I guess. And upload some pics to keep for myself. I have to sustain a bit of frustration and emotional shakers. Hehe. Ta-tuh for now.

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Goal!

The world cup has been such a craze. Although I do not include myself in that crowd boo-ing and yey-ing and ooohh-ing everywhere (Makati has plasma tv's around and starbucks had their shops full with all sorts of "fanatics" - pseudo or genuine ones), I can't help not to pay a closer look to the said ball game when I get the chance.

But I only gave myself a blank stare. Except for a moment of "arrgh", with a bit of frustration that they can't get a hit over that net-bordered goal. I am but a standing pole, with arms crossed just below my chest. Or sitting on the side of the bed, with a slouching back. Harhar. Anyway, what brings me to this post of this football game is the thought of these two teams hitting GOAL.

One time we were watching WC in Redbox, Greenbelt (while my HS friends are losing their wits finishing their last order of beer-all-you-want's), really felt super frustrated that they can't kick the ball to the goal. I know it's hard, and super tiring. They've been running back and forth the entire football field for how-many-minutes (that i do not know:P) and they can't get a score. 0-0. And now, as always, have applied to life in general:P Well for me, I have been trying to set my goal (short or long-term that is) and still I haven't set it up. I've been working for two years now, running back and forth with my life, and I can't get a HIT. Until that time, my friend have set her "goal" in life. And has been urging me to set my own too.

I have not really been "goal-less" this 22 years of existence. Of course I had my own before. And my life hadn't been a waste, in fairness to myself. Hehe. Life's a blast, although a part of me is suddenly going down. Now I have crossed the line of so-called "maturity" stage, I should, by now, know what I want to do for the rest of my life. And now I came to realize the dreams that I want to pursue. And the life I want to live. But until this moment, I just have to build it for now and come reaching it slowly.. but surely.

Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.

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Waiting for Superman - Flaming Lips

This can't wait!!!:D

I just came home and watched Superman Returns. And boy, I was so amazed how good-looking Routh was with the S suit. Whoa! Left me slack jawed when he starts to smile, with the little curly hair dangling by his forehead. Hehehe. I wouldn't have paid much attention to it, if not for She:P Hehehe. Anyway, I really did enjoy the movie and I could have not enjoyed watching it any better than the cinemas of Greenbelt. Good choice. And Thank God the showing was 7:30 which allowed us to run to the other side of Greenbelt to grab some dinner. Hehe. Two and a half hours wasn't so bad for it. Didn't leave me counting till the movie ends. I couldn't say anything negative about the movie, coz I really really love it. Super! Hahaha, I guess it's needless to rub the obvious:P

Though the ending wasn't that of a fairy-tale kind of thing, you know happy endings, well at least it had been carried enough pretty well. And I am rooting for the next Superman, if there is. And I hope there will be, when Super boy comes shaking Smallville. Hehehe.

Waaaah. We're waiting for our Superman, our hero to come! I know HE's just around:D

I asked you a question
I didn't need you to reply
Is it getting heavy?
But they realize

Is it getting heavy?
Well I thought it was as
already as heavy as can be

Is it overwhelming
to use a crane to crush a fly?
It's a good time for Superman
to life the sun into the sky

Cause it's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Tell everyone waiting for Superman
That they should hold on as best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them, or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

Cause it's getting heavy
Well I thought it was already as heavy as can be

Tell everyone waiting for Superman
That they should hold on as best they can
He hasn't dropped them, forgot them, or anything
It's just too heavy for Superman to lift

Got this song from a CD shipped from US:"> Though I lost it (hehe sorry!), I can very much recall the tracks. Waiting for superman, to take me home..

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Teaser - KDJ

I miss/ed you!!!

Waaaahh. How come I didn't recognize your voice the last time you called?! I forgot to tell you this, but the many times we have talked over the phone, and with your distinct voice, how could I have not known you? Daym, I was having a groggy voice and had just finished a conversation with the boss which, most of the time kept me in silence (hehe, wala akong masabi eh:P ang hirap intindihin! i just gave him a nod, and super long "yeaaahh". hihihi:D) when you called and I wasn't expecting a call. And bang, you gave me a song which brought back all memories in college. Awww. How I missed them. How I missed our times. I missed our phone call conversations up until late in the morning. Reviews for exams. Projects that seemed forever to finish. Memories with stupid professors. The all-kinds-of-days in G408, our beloved thesis room. The hallway lunches, meriendas and dinners. Bowling. Tagaytay trips. Dinners. Overnights. Movies. MTVs:D song writing. Petty fights, no not us, but our fights with other people:D There's so much in us that I miss the most. How else could I have spent college without you? Man, it is imagineable.

Waaaaahhh. I never did think that I'll be here thinking back about all the things that we have been doing years back. I never thought we could have finished college in that quick span of time. And now we've been in the work force for two years now and I am still stunned on how things have turned out for us.

I am thankful for us. For the friendship we have shared througout these years. Really, I thank you for everything:) Even if I know we're and we'll be seeing each other anytime, I still miss the times. Awwwww. Mwah mwah. Thanks much much. *HUGS*

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The Week that Was

It's been a loooooooooooooong week.

Monday. Worked more than 12 hrs. Worked without the bkg team. Waaaahh.
Tuesday. Ordinary day of overloading work. With work thas has been donned to us half-baked Daym.
Wednesday. On half day SL. Bad headache. An incoming migraine attack. A 1st birthday party.
Thursday. A surprise. Whoa. What a surprising comeback. And what a prank:P Tsk tsk tsk. Lunchout at Dencio's RP and dinnerout at Terikayi Boy Harbor Square.
Friday. 6 hours of sleep. 730 AM at work. Sleepy head. Dinner at Chilis GB1. Cutover at 11PM. Sleeping at 12:40am

Week 26 just came by and swept me off as if only one day had passed.

1238AM, June 31, 2006 signing off.

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