Strange Transmissions - Norah Jones

I believe, you say
Don't think, we stay
Drawn through the ebb
Lost in the flower
Beneath my breath, I confess
My world, loved less
The devil held the proof for me to know
I could only fight for the longest while
But with the truth out baby
I belong to you
I stoop, to find
My place, entwined
I took it to the bottom one more time
I could only fight for the longest while
But with the truth out baby
I belong to you
I could trip and
I want you to know
Very time I think that
I think I should go
I receive strange transmissions


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Kalokohan lang naman

sabi ko mo nung una, ngayon may trabaho ka na, magpakasasa ka sa luho mo.

hay kaye. sa hirap ng buhay ngayon, mag-ayos-ayos ka na. ngayon alam mo na ang hirap kumita ng pera. hindi ka na yata magkakapamilya.. hehe. wag naman sana. o basta ayusin mo na.. ayusin mo na yung mga bibilhin mo! hehehe.

WISH LIST.
1.book - hehe syempre kahit na walang oras, kelangang magbasa. para di mabobo sa pc.. hehe!
2.CD - Side A anthology. tsaka si Kitchie Nadal. pati ang MYMP. tama yan, OPM para mura. hehe!
3.jacket - syempre sa lamig ng opis eh kelangan ng jacket. yung pwede mo namang iwanan. pano mga gamit mo sa kapatid mo lahat eh. hehe.
4.frame - i-display mo naman ang class picture natin. wipeee. blanko pa rin ang table moo.:( sana may magregalo sayo ng pang-populate at pangkalat sa cubicle mo.. kawawa ka naman.
5.shoes - wala ka na ngang mapaglagyan eh bibili ka pa!

RESOLUTIONS
1.tuwing friday ka lang pwede kumain sa labas. hehe. mag-ipon para may pambili at panlibre. wenkwenkwenk. di totoo yun... hehe!
2.magpakasaya sa trabaho para matuwa ang buhay mo at magtagal ka ng 2 taon.
3.wag ka nang maghanap ng mga bagay na hindi kayang hanapin. MAG-ANTAY LANG, pwede?
4.maging seryoso sa buhay. hehe. tama yan, di ka ang kaye sa office. nagpapanggap ka lang. hehehe. saka ka na maglabas ng tunay na kulay. magkunwari ka muna. mga next week pwede na. hehe.
5.wag mainggit sa mga ibang tao. walang patutunguhan.
6.matulog at gumising ng maaga. wag nang magpa-late. magbagong buhay ka na!
7.tigilan ang mga extra-curricular activities. hehe.
8.gumimik ka naman kahit paminsan. isama mo sa budget yan.
9.ayusin mo ang mga gagawin mo sa pang-araw-araw para marami kang magawa. malapit ka nangmagsakripisyo ng buhay mo (i.e. sabado at linggo)
10.tumaas na ang pamasahe. wala ka nang matititipid. sulitin mo nalang. humanap ka nang may TV para makanood ka ng balita sa umaga at sa gabi. makakatulong sa iyong paglaki.

parang horoscope ng libre ang dating. hay. umayos ka nga. matanda ka na, paalala ko lang sa'yo.


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Reunited

eto na. eto na. finally. hehehe. i've been wanting to sit down and write, errr, type away what the life has been the past month. oh yah, it's been a month since i've worked. pero i won't be talking about that today... i hope. hehe. well maybe a few will do. there's nothing much that has been going around myself today regarding work.. sige be starting this supposed-to-be-jampacked blog. (note: ayan ah, gone far beyond my "sleeping time" to make up for my fans.. hehe joke:P)

ESS HS Batch 2000 reunion. well, it wasn't that much look-forwarded to. for me it would be just the usual "get-together" of same old barkada. but on the event itself, it was a different kind of experience. it was great seeing other people, even though they don't mean much to me. it was great spending a milestone in the institution where i've spent more than half of my existence... pero yung pinaka-bottomline nung event was it made me realize that people really don't change at all... all these years, they're all the same. well, maybe for a few, but generally, parang pare-pareho lang talaga. yung group.. yung style.. yung levels (oo may levels. sa kahit anong angle mo tingnan.) parang kala mo sa sarili mo nag-grow ka na.. pero yung growth mo parang linear lang. sa pag-akyat mo, akyat din yung iba. sa fashion na lang eh, kakatawa. kala namin sophisticated na dating namin, pero patawa, ang baba pa rin pala. hehe parang di pa rin namin sila nasabayan. hehehe. not that we want to or it even matters, pero on the thought that you have brought yourself up, iba pa rin pala. you can only move around the circle that you're working into. parang naka-enclose ka na sa boundaries na yun and people can never get through... unless they pull you towards the center. in any case, it doesn't matter what where how people are working in, for, to, but what's important is that masaya kami sa lahat ng ginagawa namin, walang pake-alamanan, and ulitmately we were all there, kinalimutan for a moment yung grupo and relieve those precious moments "together". cheering (whoaw. goosebumps yata ako dun. galing pala talaga noh?! hehe:P) yung mga tagilid at sablay na grad pics, yung mga moments sa monkey bars at quadrangle. yung mga kaaway mo (hahaha), mga nagalit sayo (for no apparent reason.. teehee. di nya ako pinansin.. haha! well di naman talaga kami close) yung mga naging ka-close mo for a moment. yung mga dating kasama mo sa mga pang-kenkoy na gimik sa SM at mga intermission numbers sa mga quiz bee. yung mga ka-SPICE GIRLS mo. (oh my gulay. nakakatawa maalala yon. syet!) nakakaaliw makibalita ng mga chismis ng mga ibang tao. at pambihira, ang dami na nilang may boyfriend/girlfriend. kami na lang yata wala ah? hehehe. hay. dami noh. kakatuwa rin i-recall. masaya naman sya.. in fairness to St. Elizabeth Ann Seton.




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Two weeks notice

i cannot comprehend the train of thoughts that keep running through my mind. i have alot of things i needed to let out but seemed to be constant trepidation and in indefinite stagnation... maybe because i am in a state of transition. however, the thought that i am shifting from one metamorphic stage to another has been in contrast to the reality that happens to me right now... the truth is that the transition has never exuded concurrently.

it is true that in the few weeks of engaging to so-called life-time slavery, i have to say that i am "enjoying" my masochism. although, not in its worse state just yet. (level garnered to 2, of 10?) the 'torture' is self-inflicting for the moment.(explanation: FULFILLMENT IS grasped in its full-length. taste the glory beyond the pain gone through.) although at some moment in my stay, a terrible guilt kicks in due to extra-curricular activities done on the background (so goodbye to YM for the moment:b wish i can abstain from that). but in general, so to speak, so far.. so good:)

it is again true that in those few weeks, i have started my ultimate search for my OTL. (one-true-love. pure bletch!) but, to my deepest regretful fate, in no less than two years, i would still keep myself posted on a single note. literally, SINGLE. oh well, i do believe now that it could never be found. for it finds you, wherever, whenever you may be. cliche as it seems, you'll get it when you least expect it. so for now, i'll still have this blog unreadable with love thoughts or escapades... whether of faster heartbeat or of solid heartbreak. still, there will be no stories of a date to remember. of overflowing emotions. of tears. in sadness. a night spent together. nada.

dismiss the idea of impeccable things that are never attainable. that my job will be this good. that life will remain to be fair. that love will always be mine. destiny has yet to come. a plan for my intricately weaved path will come may way in due time. it has always been the patient that remains to be virtuous. be worthy.


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pixie

to make up for the times i have been away and have procrastinated my overdued update requests, i'll be posting some pics (from an overdued sending request. blame the big ticket!=b). relive the days.












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Seize the Day

fyi: i'm still in a delirious state, so please forgive my ineloquence. the sandman, i am still in an intense "finding-myself" stage so, pardon me (while i burst:P) what brings me to this is that i have brought myself up another level to this staircase-like travel (aging up soon. augh!) to the so-called metamorphic stages of life. (final to heaven? ah-uh. always the ME stowed from all life's assurance.)

there is no turning back. i did sign the white sheet of a tree bark, supposed to chain you to a sixty-thousand worth of shackles for seven hundred thirty sets of sunrise and sunset (with unknown number of undiscoverable and unnoticed previously-said transition). but so far, so good.

which reminds me some "thoughts to ponder" from the so-experienced mother of mine. there's so much that she has been preaching. although, i may seemed uninterested and not listening, i am just otherwise.i know everything that she has been blabbing about are not rubbish (of course) and not the usual motherly-sermon to their loving child, but are true enough and sure will be taken considerably.

CARPE DIEM, as always. it never fails. although i myself cannot religiously follow, i then realize it afterwards.


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due to insistent public demand (blech!) i'll be yakking for today. excuse my uninspired mood. i am not in my true self the past few days. been in constant search for what the "True Self" must suppose to imply. despite this crisis that my identity is indulging itself, i have plucked aross the heavens, the universal truth, or better yet said, the FACT that i am the contrary to my own "self". whatever that means.

most of the time, i catch myself in a tumultuous realization that i am battling with myself. that it somehow makes me feel that i am involved in a contention, between the good and the bad, the yes and the no, the love and the hate.. within the subconscious(the angel and the devil clouded in a balloon. hanging on the right and left, barraging with different point of views at both ends of my temple) or even the conscious levels of thinking, of course, without the public utterance of such contradictions (self talk, zilch).

i forgot the conflicts with my "self", i should've written them down as i was wandering without constant direction. i laugh about it most of the time. and i am amazed, really, that i am unmistakably put into a persona full of contradictions. but, despite this contradictory thoughts that keep running through my sanity (if it is right to say that i haven't lost grasp of it), it made me realize that i may not practice what i preach, and that i am just good at blabbing about the "Good" and forgets to switch places and be the listener to myself, but makes herself known of the FACTS that should be chewed upon, and swallow it whole to be digested and dig into my nerves and penetrate into my senses. effective nonetheless. but saddening it is, that it had to take much time.

i guess i was quite successful in bringing it out. more than the contrary, but the blabber who doesn't talk gibberish, but understood to be simply just that. i cannot make myself anymore. success? turn yourself no sense, dear. non-sense.


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