post 14th sentiments

can you honestly say you feel complete? what completes you? who will? when will you? how will you be?

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in twenty-one years of living, it will be out of hypocrisy to say that we don't need any intimate relationship with that "someone". in time, we will realize we need that other half who will provide us with the emotional and physical affection from an earthly being. even if we say we are complete alone, there is still that longing to be together and share that completeness with the one you, quote unquote, LOVE.

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solitary resounds as a totally out-putting image for me. dreadfully as i can imagine, being alone never cease to haunt me -- that the thought of waking up alone scares me even more that of a monstrous nightmare. i want to embrace the idea that being alone does not necessarily mean being lonely. but when i look farther from today, i cannot fight the feeling of being scared that i will only be with myself for the rest of my life. it is not a question of my capability of being independent, but it is more of being more than complete.. to be able to share that completeness with that special person, together.

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LOVE. it will never cease. it will always be there, in our hearts. abstract it may seem, it is tangible. unseen but it is existing. a bitter satire at times, but the sweetest irony of happiness behind the tears. love makes us complete. but we must love ourselves first to proclaim ourselves that we are whole.

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will always be loved. no matter how distant or even close. even if with no return. even if doubtful. even if skeptical. even if it came short. even if you left. even if you made me cry. even if it was too long ago. even if you gave up. even if it hurt. even if forgotten. even if i want to forget. even if it was just an illusion. even if near yet so far. even if you don't know. even if we never told. even if you never told. even if i only did. even if i thought you did. even if i waited long. even if i am still waiting. even if it's hard. even if it's gone. i still do even if it's odd. but the irony is that love has always been odd to be even.

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Surprise! Surprise!

oh how i love them!:)

this post has been a day delayed, but the surprise factor is still fresh. hehe. no biggie, but i was touched with the "boys" gesture. i never thought that men are still capable of doing such thoughtful move. haha. i have underestimated. hihihi.

anyway, i just would like to give thanks to the newbies-boys (carlo, dj, jegs, mio, pong, rage) for making me put that "taray" stint on me (for one minute -- putting that lousy excuse of having me volunteered as the leader of the outreach program sponsored by the office! grrrrr!) and making me realize i blushed in humiliation because i was then faced with two red roses and kisses chocolates in between my yakking. waaaaahhh.. hehe. i felt awfully shameful of my tactlessness, and my unsolicited-demanding-attitude of keeping my precious time on my hands. haha. i was 45% humiliated, 25% surprised and 20% thankful.

oh well. i do love surprises. no matter how small. how simple. the shallowness of my happiness.

apologies and many thanks:)

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Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch - The Temptations

Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

In and out my life(in and out my life)
You come and you go(you come and you go)
Leaving just your picture behind....(ooh)
And I've kissed it a thousand times(ooh)
When you snap your finger, or wink you eye,
I come a-running to you
I'm tied to your apron strings,
And there's nothing that I can do

I can't help myself,
No, I can't help myself,

'Cause, Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'm weaker than a man should be
I can't help myself
I'm a fool in love 'ya see

Wanna tell you I don't love you,
Tell you that we're through
And I try....
But ev'ry time I see your face,
I get all choked up inside
When I call your name,
Girl, it starts to flame
Burning in my heart,
Tearing it all apart..
No matter how I try
My love I cannot hide....

'Cause Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
You know that I'm waiting for you(waiting for you)
I can't help myself
I love you and nobody else

Sugar Pie Honey Bunch
I'd do anything you ask me to(ask me to)
I can't help myself
I want you and nobody else

Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch
You know that I love you(I dooo)
I can't help myself...
No... I can't help myself

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BS

shit happens. and when they do, you don't want to get yourself into that pit of bull crap, do you? so-- to revive yourself from that quicksand that (in the irony of swallowing you slowly) you should:
1) not struggle. because it will devour you even more.
2) focus. keep yourself to that thought that you MUST GET OUT.
3) not quit. you have to get out of that pit, but escape doesn't mean the rightest thing to do.
4) accept. it happened. there's always a divine reason for it.
5) think positive. if things really don't turn out right, look beyond the circumstance and view it on a positive light.
6) work on it. do something! and plan ahead to keep you away from BS.

and lastly, SMILE. though your heart is breaking, even though it's aching. when there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by...

"happiness is a matter of choice. everything is."

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Just Got Lucky

"oh it's nothing. i just got lucky..."

when was the time you ever felt you were so damn lucky??

why do people say that it's a matter of LUCK to have been where they are now. or have achieved something remarkable. or have been who they have become... got wealthy (and i mean overwhelmingly FILTHY rich). won something(erm.. except elections. it's something else. either it's magic or.. or..?) got the gold. been first place. is it false humility? or people can just accept the fact that they have acquired them, since they don't EVEN know when, where, why and how?

to where are we indebted of the great things that come to us? to luck? to destiny? or is it just ultimately our fateful path?

Or should i ask to Whom do owe all this glory?

Give thanks to Almighty.


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Shall We Dance?

I don't dance
So do you
But we came across
Dancing out of tune
You had to dance
With someone else
And so did I
You swayed with her
I did with him
But there was longing
That we could've been
On that night
When we had to dance
We ended up
Having that chance
Under the moonlight
You took my hand
I looked into your eye
With a tinge of fright
We took the first step
And flew with the music
Twisted and turned
With your hand across my body
The song was winding down
We are still holding each others hand
My heart was yearning
To keep you closer till dawn
But as the last note was played
We have to let go
The night was the same
As if we never danced at all


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Suntok sa Buwan - Session Road

Hindi mo ba alam
Ang dami kong pinagtakpan?
Pag kasama ka'y
Suntok sa buwan
Hindi mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga iyong tignan
Wag kang ganyan
Walang pupuntahan
Di ko to gusto
Kaya wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin, lahat ay gagawin
Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

Hindi mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
Hindi habang buhay, ika'y aantayin
Ito'y akoing hiling
Kaya sana naman at tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y di nabibitin
Di ko ito gusto
Kaya wg kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin, lahat ay gagawin
Itanong mo sa akin, tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin lahat ay gagawin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin


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Reverting last post

this blog is not closing. i meant another form of closure.

i am already nearing 100 posts... with two unfinished businesses:P drafts.

and i don't have to have any romantic experience to have a post for this month. (even if i do, not a sole reason).

so i should've deleted the previous. everything was a total ERRATUM. oh, except for one-- the verdict for 10 splats of rotten tomatoes.


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Awaiting for Closure

second blog. ninth month. 80++th post. and it's february.

10 splats of rotten tomatoes for a blog that cannot be updated even with a single line of thought.

or does it only mean that it's the time of the month that i am completely devoid from any associated valentine experience to share?


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