The dreamer - Random Thoughts

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i feel like blogging away. sometimes it's therapeutic. and sometimes i feel that i am able to fulfill 'at the very least' my dream of being a writer... but now that i am awake, i am haunted by the fact, of reality, that i am still in a struggle.

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i am frustrated, really. in all aspects. so i am dreaming away all these fateful wishes and hopeful sighs, that maybe someday... like a wish on a star. will all come to meeee...

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i will be the blabber that i am again. haha. i am noting to myself that i have been noticeably gaining some weight. i haven't checked it out how much i gained, but i did, significantly.. i am happy though, but i am worried that i might not be able to stop getting bigger. i don't want to get big like my sisters. NOOOOOOOOO!!! haha. i don't want to let them realize that karma is getting back on me.. harharhar.

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i miss eating yellowcab, or sbarro. i miss talking over the phone. i miss watching movies (last i saw was day after tomorrow. not an over movie-fanatic, but it feels good watching one though). i miss hanging out at pearl's place (under the moonlight, wide breezy garden). i miss the story of Maria and the suspense Da Vinci Code. i miss watching cielo and romer and lawrence (teehee!). i miss watching CHARMED!!!! (how's piper doing? they've been telling that maybe chris is somehow related genetically to wyatt? hmm, i forgot the connection). i miss the dance-revo. i miss the babies (gabby and baby mae). i miss staying late talking (most of the time about nothing, or the never ending topic about L-O-V-E and at times added with some *bleep*bleep* stories. hahaha. i'm learning!) i miss having a walk (brisk walk, with some talking. [not HHWW. i don't miss it because it never happened anyway!]). i miss playing badminton (for 4 straight hours without eating!). i miss eating ice cream on  sugar cones. i miss the magic mic (singing, out-of-tuned, the never ending The Corrs songs! haha).  i just realized i missed Meteor Garden (hahaha).  i'm missing out on a lot. where have i been?!

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i am rekindling Jason Mraz to my heart. haha. i just realized i missed him, too. my sister borrowed the "pirated" copy of Waiting for my Rocket to Come and it's just now she gave it back. i'm playing it now (i won't worry my life aawaaaaayyy..) and will be playing the other tracks which mark gave me before. hehe. i love the 2 JM's. Mr. Mayer and Mr. Mraz. hahaha. i wanted to write like they do. and play the guitar as good as them. but i don't even know how to strum it perfectly! daym. i've been wanting to play it, but nobody even wants to try to teach me:( like my wanting to learn how to drive.

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do i have to learn everything all by myself?!?

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oh well. i'm sleepy and i am about to enter my dreamland where everything i could possibly think of (wanting to happen, those i miss will not be missed anymore) will turn to reality. but as i open my eyes tomorrow, i welcome myself back to earth.

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i am almost finally finally out of words.. - mr. j.mraz:)


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