When I'm Thinking About You - The Sundays

Over the rooftops a plane in the sky
Beat of a bass drum cars passing me by
Under a bridge dark then back into light
A river of raincoats and a forest of faces
Still for a moment then red into green
Slow shuffling shoes whisper sight unseen
Row upon row of houses return an empty stare
Let the daydream for a little while longer

Ah.. yeah...
Hope I’ll never wake
When I’m thinking about you
(yeah) hope I’ll never wake
Cos now I’m thinking about you

Two-minute hailstorm then melts into rain
(oh) sing me a rainbow it’s sunny again
Swallows overhead while the traffic snarls below
Could I (could I) keep dreaming for a little while longer

Hope I’ll never wake
When I’m thinking about you
So that you know - I never want to wake
Cos now I’m thinking about you

When you’re searching your soul
When you’re searching for pleasure
How often, pain is all you find
But when you’re coasting along and nobody’s trying too hard
You can turn around and like where you are

(yeah and) I hope I never wake
When I’m thinking about you
And I close my eyes (dear)
Now I’ll never never wake
Why should I stop thinking about you

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The Ultimate Dream

Waaaah! I wish I have the luxury to travel. Whenever. Wherever.

Hay. I wish I have somebody with me to dream and live that dream;)

Anyone?

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Warning - Incubus

It is not a good omen to speak of a sentimental subject on New Year's Day. However, in times like these, it does not choose any occasion to feel... broken. Not necessarily of the HEART, but.. uh.. err. hmm.. BLECH! Oh yes, IT IS. Indeed it is about the heart.

I have not EXACTLY been involved of any significant relationships. For what 'EXACTLY' particularly means, I beg for it to be kept untold as it entails a looooong story and complicated BS as it is (haha did i just sound bitter at that?!). But for the 'longest' time I have not been, many people are asking WHY? Well, I've been asking myself that too.

Maybe, for one obvious reason, it must have been the IDEAL me. I cannot tell what idealism exactly or how idealism works for me, but for the people who knows me that well, they can very much attest to this public deliverance.

I have been thinking, what has really been the IDEAL?People have been prodding me to get out of the box where I have been keeping myself tucked forever. And that RISK has been greek to me that whenever it stings my ears, apparently my sense of hearing has come down. I become deaf for a moment.

The KNIGHT is still but a shadow that remains far from a distance. From a dream, it was just his grayish figure that came close to me. I cannot see if he got long hair or none, but his head was round. He was right beside me, stands not so tall, and was just lean. I can hear that he sings well. He never stops talking, but is witty and sensible that he never became a bore. I can feel his hands and was just manly that I can touch the bulging of veins. He says he knows how to play the guitar, and it has been his bestfriend ever since. He loves outdoor and very much into sports, but is also comfortable with the couches of his home, with a good book to read or just be that potato. The feeling of him beside me gave me that feeling of security. It was as if he was guarding me with his long and slender arms and that height that was not overpowering yet, he was as if shielding me from any danger.. When I was about to ask for his name, I was beginning to feel that I was about to wake up. But before I had my eyes opened (and even before I had to open my mouth for that question), he held my hands and prayed that someday we will meet... In color.

Warning - Incubus
Bat your eyes girl.
Be otherworldly.
Count your blessings.
Seduce a stranger.
What's so wrong with being happy?
Kudos to those who see through sickness...yeah
My biggest fear will be the rescue of me
funny how it always turns out that way

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

I suggest we
Learn to love ourselves,
Before its made illegal
When will we learn, When will we change
Just in time to see it all come down

Those left standing will make millions
Writing books on ways it should have been

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.

Floating in this cosmic Jacuzzi
We are like frogs oblivious,
To the water, starting to boil,
No one flinches we all float face down

She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by.
Pass you by.

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Euphoria

Defined: a pleasant state of high spirits; a state of extreme well-being and pleasure.

I was hoping I would be able to flood this strip of page with each-day-milestones-to-share for the entire month of December. But due to my unacceptable excuses (erm, which need not to be divulged anymore:P) coupled with the unexpected rainy weather on a cold December (yes, it should be. But the cold makes it gloomier, ripping the Christmas breeze in it), this blog has been empty since the 4th day of the month.

However, despite the long-days of absence, I still can vividly recall in graphic accounts, each occasion. This has quite been a momentous month (28 days to date). I had never been elatedly busy, as the busy-ness had been overpowered by the better things:D

1. My brother's and officemate's wedding had both kept me to almost-to-tears. Even I myself could not explain why (not even of the thought that it would sadden me of my brother leaving the house, or my officemate leaving his 'bachelor' life), my tears were lurking on the lids (but never dropped. Maybe because I tried not to). Unconventional wedding traditions and sumptuous meals. They sure had made it one of the most memorable day of their lives (and added to ours too..)

2. The two-time despe party for our beloved friend at Tagaytay and the so-called "Batangas". Freezing cold swimming party and the Cinderalla-like hangout (as I was interrupted at 12midnight -- the slave has been called for duty!) And now, another one has flown to pursue the 'American Dream'. There weren't much tears, but still it sure is a saddenning thought that we're starting to really grow smaller...

3. There were a lot of merriment for the Christmas holidays. Three I had for the company (OPI, ISD, IR2-WEB), two for the family (Bats and Home), and one for my forever KUBO friends (@ the not so Good Earth and ej's). And oh, I had to say that I won a microwave:P I just felt I would win. Hehehe. Oh I did forget there was one more, we had an Enchanted Christmas Party the day after Christmas, which I got another gift.. A bruise from my brother who shot me on my right arm when we played the paintball challenge. Darn.

4. The Christmas-list-conference with my siblings until 1am, and took me almost 10 sheets of my deskpad (now I'm using it, thanks much much:P) to rewrite, and finally come up with the list for the entire clan. Whew. And how much did we actually had for budget? Man, whopping xxx amount. Well, 'tis the season of giving, to be jolly. It doesn't really matter:P

5. The ACTUAL shopping. Well, I didn't had much involvement in this. As I had not done my own.. I still owe alot of people for presents, which I really need to pursue this much-awaited BREAK I needed.

6. THE BREAK. THE BREAK!!! I had been wanting this to happen. I had been dreading for me to sleep away, read away and BE AWAY from work. ALthough I had not been much successful (I cannot keep myself from connecting that is. Argh), I am still God-thankful for this:) I SHALL be making the most of my 3 free working days.

7. The gifts I have received: must say I am all happy and grateful for each:) As always;)

I am still in the euphoric stage. And I must contain this until the dreadful moment when I will be recaptured and be enslaved again by the monstrosity of the corporate jungle.

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Switchfoot - Stars

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you look so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you look so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah!

Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone...

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Impulsive, Reckless

Haaaayy. How can I ever keep myself from being so impulsive yet reckless when deciding on simple matters. Damn, I really hate myself. I can't even be patient for at least four days!! Augh!!!

And then after all these impulsive decisiveness, I find myself regretting of that shit decision. Damn. Sometimes spur of the moment works good on me, however sometimes (or MOST OF THE TIME) a little bit of CONTEMPLATION should be taken into consideration.

I hate ME. ME. ME!!!! Grrrrrrrrr!!! Huhuhuhuhuh:'( I have to punish myself for being so childishly, recklessly impulsive.

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Pop Question #002: Bakit ba?

Na-post ko na ito dati. Pero, my observation has been not been my own. I have shared the same 'theory' that may turn out a LAW. Oh no, wag naman sana!!!

Bakit kaya mas marami yung mga magagandang mga babae ang nage-end up sa mga not-so-handsome na mga lalake... Kaysa sa mga magagandang lalaki na nage-end up sa mga hindi kagandahang mga babae?

Gets mo? So eto na ba talaga nagpapatunay na physical lang talaga ang first level ng mga lalake? Pag chaka yung itsura, goodbye nalang! At ang mga babae, habang may buhay.. may pag-asa! Na hindi natatapos sa pisikal na kaanyuan ang lahat. Madadaan pa sa kabaitan at kasipagan:P Achecheche!

Depende pa rin. Pero san kayo mag/nag-fall? Hihihihihi:P

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Pop Question #001: Ano daw?

Ano daw ang ibang lugar (o sige kahit word, pero mas maganda lugar:P) na may 'G' na nagiging 'H' pag binasa?

E.g. Corregidor.

Sino ba daw naman kasi ang nag-imbento na bigkasin sya na 'Corre-hi-dor' imbis na 'Corre-gi-dor'? Hindi ba ang Pilipino ay -- kung ano ang sulat, sya ang basa... o kung ano ang basa syang sulat? (ah ewan kung ano man yun na sabi ni Ms. Filipi1, hehe)

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Guess who's back

Fresh Tomato splats again.

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Happy HOLLOWeen

Augh. Who could have ever spent this 4-day-weekend-sandwiched-two-working-days-again-three-weekends occasion better? Or should I say who could have ever spent the worst 'holidays' than me?! I have enslaved myself from work (with friggin' slow network!), became a janitress for a day and bummed myself to sleep on a Sunday because of a terrible migraine, and slept until midnight for my whatevers. BLECH!

I should have been on a beach. Or on a road-trip. Or been to Baguio (which I had only been once. When I was three). Or an overnight gimmick somewhere out-of-town and off my pc.

Poor me. I guess I just have to 'enjoy' the 'holidays' on November 1 and try to finish reading the Goblet of Fire.

Whining,
HollowGirl on a HalloWeen

Gusto ko umalis!!!!!!!!!!!

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Catharsis

Definition: The release of tension and anxiety by recounting and/or acting out past experiences.

I had a brief cathartic chat with a few friends. And funny how it seems that they are beginning to realize how life should be, and should have been. Now they know how to choose, know what they want, know when to try or risk, know where to put theirselves when dipped into deep sh*t.

Thanks;) Even if I hadn't experienced much to what have you had, I know it'll pull me through when I will. All had been heard, read, and kept in mind and carved in heart as well. You'll hear from me yakking, whining, struggling and howling with tears when I have my own share. For now I remain to be the addressee.

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Guilty Fries

It wasn't so late for me going home, but it was sure late for dinner. As I dropped myself in front of Jollibee, I decided to buy myself from hunger. One piece chicken joy and regular fries as usual. The first just came out right, however the latter had to keep me waiting. So I opened Goblet of Fire and whiled away for my fries. As I saw the red tray coming over my table, a large fries came lying on it. Thought that I had to wait a little longer.. But the guard was slowly coming over my way, then handing that large fries. I came looking for the receipt, and I read twice if I had just ordered large. But, it was as if I was reading in BOLD, saying REGULAR. or REG that is. I came thinking if I had to return and ask to be changed. Pretending to be naive and innocent of the said mistake, I went out and started eating.

Walking slowly, waiting in queue for the tricycle, and guilt-stricken as I was finishing the fries. Damn. The whole time I was munching each strip. I was battling with myself but I didn't do anything. Hahaha. Funny, para akong ewan na nakikipaglaban sa moral at sa gutom ko. Sabi ko pa, sasakit tiyan ko sigurado! Still, I ended finishing it all up (hungry still, though). Hay. It hadn't been me. I always return or ask to change my order if it hadn't been right (even if it'll be of my advantage). But I didn't know if I had just be too hungry (to death!) to exchange it for guilt.

Oh well. It'll be the last time. And I just came accomplishing that good deed, when I cashed-out my rebate for my Globe line. Hehe. The cashier gave me 2050, instead of 1250. Weird that he was, he came counting and reciting the bills. He said, "Ma'am your total cash is, One (thousand bill) thousand, Two (two 500 bills) hundred, and 50 (one fifty) pesos". I came counting myself in front of him, and repeated what he had just said. Then still he didn't get it. I wasn't successful of making him realize that he made a mistake. I was furious of his attention, then just came bluntly that he gave two five hundred bills instead of a hundred. As I walked out, I just realized that I am still a good girl, nonetheless:P

Good deed, dear:)

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Our Pseudo

Samuel Johnson. Marco Lance. Patrick. Haha. It is fun having our pseudos. That even with our own vivid, common, shared imagination, we are making things happen. As we want it. Haha. Desperate? Nah. We are just making fun of ourselves;) While waiting, let our minds wander through the 'catatonic' love lives... condition of being apparently awake but unresponsive (as google had defined).

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Milestone #002: 22

1. A card.
2. Two pictures with snippets of other picturettes.
3. cake with pink candles.
4. Pizza pasta chicken.
5. Dedications -- weird and funny and sweet and touching and inspiring!
6. 13 people.
7. Giftwrap tearing-- nada! Haha.
8. An emoticon gift.
9. An emoticon cake.
10. From myself - Nike Free.
11. No space for new messages.
12. Postponed evals.
13. 2k.
14. A black pen.
15. Green shirt.
16. Taco Bell's cinnamon twists.
17. Ube ice cream.
18. Marshmallows.
19. Irene (Wtf?! Ooops peace:P).
20. Waiting gift. Please pend, indefinitely (augh!).
21. Calls.
22. Home.

Missing some. Missing. Miss. Mmmmmmmmmmm.

Fun. More. Ta-tuh!

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Quote #001: The Evals

Never let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do. - Jens Dahl

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What I Didn't Know - Athenaeum

I complain
When nothing's even wrong
And you're ashamed
Cause you're not quite that strong

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
I miss your face as you can tell
I hope my absence makes you well

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I am sorry too
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

I am shy
I never speak a word
And you are numb
From all the things you never heard

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
But now I own an empty space
And I can't fill it with your face

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I believe in you
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

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Milestone #001: First Anniversary

Quite nearing 22nd year of existence, it had been thought of putting down important, more so -- significant milestones that occur in my life. So let's just start with this..

First off, i had been corrected that it is grammatically incorrect to say "First Year Anniversary". It is redundant since "anniversary " already defines a year. So it has been noted. Thanks;)

Celebrating my first year in my 3rd "Second Home" was nothing much but an ordinary day. It was a usual Tuesday when I came on time (just like my first day last year:P) and sat on my cube starting to read mails and checking for tickets that I have to work on for the rest of the day. I have greeted two of my colleagues the same greeting I gave myself the moment I woke up, and those I have received since I got into the office. I was wondering if they felt the same thing I was feeling that moment on. Well, there's really no big deal about it, but I was just thinking if they were as quizzical as I was, pondering on how time flew so "fast". Or were they thinking that they had to "celebrate" their first year. Or are they "rejoicing" because they've got one more year left and they are (we are) broken free from the ball and chains. Or they are just simply "happy" and "contented" with what they have now, and thankful that they have WORK and THUMBS UP people to work with... Well enough of what they were thinking. I didn't even bother to ask. Guess they were thinking of it themselves and wondering the same way I did.

The first year may not be as extraordinary or did not shower brand-spanking new experiences to this so-called life, but I have to say that they were great. Really, time flies so fast. I came to meet alot of people, know things about other people, discovered alot about people, have analyzed the eccentricities of each person, have come to accept people as they are, no matter what. Precocious that I was/am, I have learned alot in a year.

Time:
1 month pretending to do something, and awaiting exactly for 5:30 to strike, racing against the door for dismissal. Trainings that seemed like so schoolish that I have missed.
8 months of imprisonment (with benefits:)) in the conference room made the bulk of the year.
3 months of "real work" came rummaging thru the core of "production"

People:
More than 80 people working in one floor
Six trainors
One "dad", one full "brother", and the rest are my half "siblings"
12 goofy teammates
one "odd" "Boss" (I had to put it in separate quotes since they had different connotations)
More than 30 "newbies" (dancing 80's, 90's and present).
[Those people that have gone in and out within one year had been more than momentous to call it a milestone.]

Place
One cube that I came populating with trash, and that turned to be the "water station"
One floor to which people spend more than 8 hrs
One sad looking bldg (because of its gray color) with poor elevator, and weird tenants from the lower levels (wish I can stalk at Kris Aquino by chance)
One way that I got to travel (in 2 hrs at max and 45 mins at min) for 5 years and counting

I have bought, received, lost, gained, gave, thrown away alot of memories and experiences. Some were firsts, some might be the last, some should be the last, some hopefully may not be the last, some may happen to be the first, some may not happen at again, some I never expected to happen, some I dreadfully wished not to happen but did, some I wanted to happen and did happen, and some just happened.

There's just too much in a year that happened and could not be compressed in one post. Glad that I am here. Aand after a year, I guess I have to say I am ready for one more:)

Evals coming up next week. Keeping my fingers crossed. My heart is thumping so fast.

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OktoberFest!

• Oct 03 - Betz's Birthday ; Leo's Back! ; Lunchout!
• Oct 04 - Our First Anniv ; walang lunchout:P ; NP w/ Jode
• Oct 05 - Pam's Birthday ; Libre Pam!!!
• Oct 06 - Lunchout c/o Leo ; San kaya?
• Oct 11 - Carlos' First Anniv ; May lunchout kaya?:D
• Oct 12 - hmmmm ; Pizza party?
• Oct 14 - Farewell party for Leo hehe ; Sino kaya papa-lunchout dito?:D
• Oct 15 - Party!!!!! ; sembreak na ng mga med students!
• Oct 21 - Monch's Birthday ; Libre Monch!
• Oct 29 - She's First Anniv ; Lunchout kaya kami?
  
• (POST OktoberFest!)
  *Nov 2 - Angel's First Anniv ; sabay na yan kay She! :P
• ThursDays are bowling days!

More to Come! More to Come!

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Moshi moshi

My Japanese name:

This kanji means Enlightenment.

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I'm Yours - Jason Mraz

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothin's going to stop me but devine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
Ah la peaceful melody
It's your godforsaken right to be loved love loved love love

So i won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
It is our fate, I'm yours

Well I been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm sayin is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me
I like one big family
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love

I won't hesitate no more
Oh no more no more no more
It's your God-forsaken right to be loved, I'm sure
Theres no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

No I won't hesitate no more, no more
This cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours, I'm yours

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