Two weeks notice

i cannot comprehend the train of thoughts that keep running through my mind. i have alot of things i needed to let out but seemed to be constant trepidation and in indefinite stagnation... maybe because i am in a state of transition. however, the thought that i am shifting from one metamorphic stage to another has been in contrast to the reality that happens to me right now... the truth is that the transition has never exuded concurrently.

it is true that in the few weeks of engaging to so-called life-time slavery, i have to say that i am "enjoying" my masochism. although, not in its worse state just yet. (level garnered to 2, of 10?) the 'torture' is self-inflicting for the moment.(explanation: FULFILLMENT IS grasped in its full-length. taste the glory beyond the pain gone through.) although at some moment in my stay, a terrible guilt kicks in due to extra-curricular activities done on the background (so goodbye to YM for the moment:b wish i can abstain from that). but in general, so to speak, so far.. so good:)

it is again true that in those few weeks, i have started my ultimate search for my OTL. (one-true-love. pure bletch!) but, to my deepest regretful fate, in no less than two years, i would still keep myself posted on a single note. literally, SINGLE. oh well, i do believe now that it could never be found. for it finds you, wherever, whenever you may be. cliche as it seems, you'll get it when you least expect it. so for now, i'll still have this blog unreadable with love thoughts or escapades... whether of faster heartbeat or of solid heartbreak. still, there will be no stories of a date to remember. of overflowing emotions. of tears. in sadness. a night spent together. nada.

dismiss the idea of impeccable things that are never attainable. that my job will be this good. that life will remain to be fair. that love will always be mine. destiny has yet to come. a plan for my intricately weaved path will come may way in due time. it has always been the patient that remains to be virtuous. be worthy.


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